Monday, March 11, 2002
Spending money like it was ego. |9:58 AM| I've been stupid for the last couple days. Really stupid. This situation with car insurance and all other crap has yanked my pride off like a banana peel. So I've been wasting money. I went out every night this weekend. I blew probably...$50. I also accomplished very little, seeing as I slept through my appointment to get my car repaired. Oh, and I haven't been to see my doctor in something like 2 months. It all seems increasingly pointless as the days wear on, and nothing of any consequence seems to change. It seems that the entire world is on some kind of development arc that I felt off of at some point about a year or so ago. People are graduating from College or getting jobs or going to Europe or dying of drug addiction or getting married or anything but sitting in a room and bleeding money. Every fucking month for the last 2 years has ended up like this. Yeah, I've blown money on stupid shit, and I tried to start a business at a bad time, but for someone who hates the pointless pursuit of money I seem to be pretty wrapped up in getting paid.

I had no idea I was as pissed as I was about this whole situation at work until I was already flipping out at my boss. Christ, that was fucking proffesional. It was like watching a speech on television. I'm amazed I wasn't actually fired as to maintain control over the office. Had anyone been around besides my boss and I, I'm sure I wouldn't have a job. Again, that'd be a change. Hell, maybe my medication stopped working. Maybe hyper amplified emotions will be a Goddamn change.

The reason I've been stupid about money this weekend is the same reason I'm always stupid about money. I fucking hate money. I'm not a communist, I just hate having my destiny determined by something so twisted by everyone else. Too me, it's like playing the lottery to see if you get cancer. There are rules, but they don't seem to apply to this job at all.

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