Monday, June 23, 2008
Long, bold struggles. |10:25 PM| The point, the aim, the current value of my meditation is to change the way I communicate my thoughts to others. If I'm going to speak, say what I say boldly, if I lack the conviction, don't say it (no mumbling). My speech should be more meaningful than breaking wind during a thunderstorm.
If I had some idea but previously got distracted or wasn't bold enough to say it, don't just agree with the person who happens to come up with that same idea. I end up sounding like a sycophant or David Brent from "The Office".
I still do too much internal forehead smacking of "That was a good idea, why didn't you say it?" or "Christ that was a DUMB idea, why'd you spit that out?". I still talk too much, it makes it all sound like lying. The idea is to remove dwelling, but not contemplation.
While I can't count to 5 before every statement, Relax, relax. Happy mediums.
On the physical front, I have the core workout from the doc's office, and I've killed all the wasps near the weight benches. It's time to start getting strong again.
Mental/spiritual front, beyond school, do I have time to volunteer at "A Safe Place"? Unlikely. CPR cert? Maybe. A camping first aid course would probably be more useful, I have no idea how to set/splint a broken bone. I can at least go donate some blood.
Long, bold struggles. |10:25 PM| The point, the aim, the current value of my meditation is to change the way I communicate my thoughts to others. If I'm going to speak, say what I say boldly, if I lack the conviction, don't say it (no mumbling). My speech should be more meaningful than breaking wind during a thunderstorm.
If I had some idea but previously got distracted or wasn't bold enough to say it, don't just agree with the person who happens to come up with that same idea. I end up sounding like a sycophant or David Brent from "The Office".
I still do too much internal forehead smacking of "That was a good idea, why didn't you say it?" or "Christ that was a DUMB idea, why'd you spit that out?". I still talk too much, it makes it all sound like lying. The idea is to remove dwelling, but not contemplation.
While I can't count to 5 before every statement, Relax, relax. Happy mediums.
On the physical front, I have the core workout from the doc's office, and I've killed all the wasps near the weight benches. It's time to start getting strong again.
Mental/spiritual front, beyond school, do I have time to volunteer at "A Safe Place"? Unlikely. CPR cert? Maybe. A camping first aid course would probably be more useful, I have no idea how to set/splint a broken bone. I can at least go donate some blood.
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